Friday, May 4, 2012

What is this I don't even..

Sometimes when I wake up in the morning I just have one thought. "What is my life". Especially the mornings where I wake up in my best friends bed because I lost my key (again) and he took pity on me (again) but the only thing I can ask him is "where is my macaroni salad?" Because honestly, that was the only thing I cared enough about at that point. I don't know how I always end up in random ass situations. It always happens that I find something last minute where I only know one person and just tag along and end up leaving with a bunch of new friends who I'll probably never see again sober. But I guess that's what keeps my life interesting to me. I sure do have a lot of stories. For instance last night a friend and I decided last minute to go drink with the guy I'm currently seeing and his friends. By the time we got there it was already midnight and everyone was drunk. So naturally we just start downing shots. Things got a little weird. Like covering some guy in toilet paper weird. And apparently the guy I'm seeing is a crazy angry person because he punched two different people in the face for no reason. And that's really all I remember so far. My life has been bouncing all around so much lately that going out and drinking is actually what keeps it normal. I realize this is a sad statement. I just found out a few days ago that my mom is planning to move thirteen hours away and marry some guy who she used to be engaged to but hasn't seen in about 15 years. She hasn't even fully divorced my step dad yet. I'm really happy for her because she's been miserable for a long time now and definitely deserves to live her life out happily. But this does put me in a weird situation. I'm not going with her. So by this winter I have to find somewhere to come home to. I don't live up where I go to college yet because I can't afford it and don't have a car that would make the distance. I also have to find somewhere to keep my horse because I really don't want him to be all the way out in fucktown Michigan. Oh and I just found out today that I don't have a job this summer anymore. My boss just kind of forgot to tell me that until now so I don't know if I'll be able to find anything. On top of this I have apparently a sign on my forehead that says "Please come cry on my shoulder, please". I do love my friends though so of course I don't say anything. I just wish I had someone to talk to. I guess that's why this post is incredibly long and boring as shit. I have so many things to figure out in so little time. Sooooo glad all this is happening during exam week too! Yippee! Alright. Time to put my NO FUCKS ARE TO BE GIVEN face on and get shit done.

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